It's Monday and I'm sitting here, writing my blog and drinking coffee out of the fertility mug. I'm not so convinced that it's actually helping me get pregnant as much as it is a reminder of some of my closest friends who are so supportive.
A few months ago my partner and I went back home to western MA to celebrate our friend's surprise birthday. We had made plans with her partner to stay at their house that night so we didn't have to get a hotel room. It was so much fun to surprise her!
Later that night, we went back to their house to get settled in. There was one more present to open: a coffee mug for the birthday girl. This was no ordinary mug. The birthday girl has asked for a new, hand-made mug from her favorite potter. When she opened it up, I mentioned how much I liked it as well. And then my guest bedroom was calling....I have such a low tolerance for booze now that I barely drink anything at all....
The next morning as we were getting ready to go, both of our hosts approached me with a box. I knew the mug was in it. After asking why they were giving it to me, they said 'it can be your fertility mug,' and the name sort of stuck.
No matter how I've tried to think positive this week, as I tinkled on the stick and saw the results of IUI #10, I knew the outcome would be negative. I've had cramps for days now. I found my phone and sent a text to the WMA girls. 'The fertility mug is broken.' But just as quickly as that text was sent, they replied with their super-supportive attitudes and comments. I wish so much (for both of our sakes) that we were physically closer to some of our friends back home. It's hard sometimes when we only have each other here. We are definitely due for a visit.
We now are going to do some additional testing to measure the size of the polyps and determine if they are in fact big enough to be hindering implantation. Once we have that information, we'll decide if we're going to remove them.
I think we'll remove them anyway. It seems to be the only logical thing that is keeping me from getting pregnant at this point.
Are you an ordinary lesbian in a normal, healthy relationship? Do you and your partner just want to get pregnant but everywhere you look you find information relating to husbands and wives? If you've answered 'yes', then welcome to your cliff notes for pregnancy. Join me on my big, gay ride to child birth filled with lesbian humor and satire! You have no idea how much of everything you read or see is dedicated to straight people.... *sigh* if only our pregnancy journey was as naturally occuring.
I have just found your blog. I have not done quite as many IUI's as you but I am close. I just had surgery much like you would have to remove the polyps I think. It has put me out another cycle along with a D&C making it two cycles out. I feel like we may have a lot in common. I will keep you in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much! Hopefully having the polyps removed will work for you!
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